i've run out of things to write.

sorry.



On a much happier note, Germany was FANTASTIC. I'm a walking zombie right now, but it was fantastic.

TOWN TOMORROW

I have these....really awesome perfumes xD I got them from the Aachen Weihschencahebhcaosauchebaucbeauybe2y3re72t897f6d2 something market lool

And yeah, also enough chocolate to last me my whole fucking life.

Maria, candles! hohohaha.

byeeee
xxxx

Why is it like this?

Why am I like this?

I'm the most selfish person in the world. I hate the way I feel about things I shouldn't feel about. I hate the way I involuntarily twist everything in my mind, therefore becoming stupidly paranoid about it. I hate the fact that I'm just so shit compared to everyone else. I hate how stupid this all is. It's fucking shit.

Gaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaahhhhhhhhhhhhhhh

Hiiiiiiiiiiii!!!!

i'm off to the land of DEUTSCH in.....roughly 5 and half hourss :D

Woooo, it should be pretty damn awesome. Even though it means I won't see people tomorrow... :( ...you know who you are..... ;)

lol

Yeah, i'm gna miss you.

But yeah, life right now.....pretty amazing to be honest. I have amazing friends, I am able to be around awesome, jolly people everyday who always make me smile, and, my boyfriend is the most amazing guy in the world.

...I'm so,so, so happy. And i thank each and every one of you fantastic people in my life for making it so worth living (:

Love you all xxxxxx

I run through the alleyway
I run through the rain and the alleyway
I run through the dark the rain and the alleyway
I run until my lungs fail through the dark the rain and the alleyway
I run until my legs are numb until my lungs fail through the dark the rain and the alleyway
I run with tears down my face until my legs are numb until my lungs fail through the dark the rain and the alleyway
I run until I'm coughing up blood with tears down my face until my legs are numb until my lungs fail through the dark the rain and the alleyway
I run and I choke until I'm coughing up blood with tears down my face until my legs are numb until my lungs fail through the dark the rain and the alleyway
I run until the streetlights start to flicker and I choke until I'm coughing up blood with tears down my face until my legs are numb until my lungs fail through the dark the rain and the alleyway
I run with a lifeless body until the streetlights start to flicker and I choke until I'm coughing up blood with tears down my face until my legs are numb until my lungs fail through the dark the rain and the alleyway and I don't stop.
I'm running with you, a lifeless body until the streetlights start to flicker and I choke until I'm coughing up blood with tears down my face until my legs are numb until my lungs fail through the dark the rain and the alleyway and I'll never stop.

You spin me around, until I feel sick
Cut me down, and onto you my blood drips
My shoulders feel heavy
My balance is shit,
And I look for you
But I fall.

I hate being alone
In fear that maybe one day,
I won't see the sun rise.

I hate being alone
In fear that just maybe one day,
I won't see the sun rise.

Quiet like the snow

I don't think I deserve it, selflessness, find your way into my heart. All stars could be brighter, all hearts could be warmer.


Currently writing lyrics for Music.... and this song is inspiring me.

I don't know, I don't feel good.

xxx

...fucking hell

....God that was bloody weird

I was watching this weird documentary on the whole "2012" doomsday thing, and well, apparantly i fell asleep... and i woke up, and i looked at the clock and i thought it was seven in the morning -_-' i was like, panicking because i'd done nothing, hadn't written in my diary or whatever etc, and my mum said... "what are you on about ? " and kind of laughed, and i realised that it is only seven in the evening. Of the same day. Lol xD

That was funneh... And now I feel really weird.

......i'maa go. byeee!
xxxxxx

...Do you?

Do you ever feel like when you're young...3 years feels like a whole lifetime?

So many things can happen, and have happened, and so many amazing things can happen, and have happened.

Sometimes I get scared about the future. I don't want to grow up. I don't want to grow old. I don't want to die.

Not just yet, anyways.

xxxxx

whenever you feel as though there's no hope left he'll bring it to you
whenever you cry and feel hurt he'll wipe your tears and dry your eyes for you
whenever you fall he'll pick you up and carry you
whenever you feel as though you're dying he'll put the light back in your eyes for you.

i've had an amazing day today, and god i'm happy.

xxxxx

gagagagaga

gahgahgahgahgah

was talking to Eliiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiinimoomundootocom just now... well actually about an hour ago lol on the phonnneeeeeeeeeeee:D

today was...a decently good day:)

even though i was kinda pisseed ooff jsut now....................

>.<

tomorrow!:)

hopefully his phone will be onnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnn

xDD Looooooooooooooool

i'm happy. (:

^_^

^_^^_^^_^^_^^_^^_^

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tired

hia

it is currently....23:41pm. twenty minutes until midnight. twenty minutes until tomorrow.

Lol

hmm..?

XMAS LIGHTS WERE COOOOOOOOOL!:D i swear hattie's always high.... on love haha xD

today was a mufti dayyy, and................


dun

dun

DUN

THE EXAMS


:O

*shock horror*

...i reckon it went...Ok. Biology paper was fine, but physics.....

bloody f!&@*!£@ hell.


.....i'm not supposed to be on this late... but, who actually cares?
....i'm looking forward to school tomorrow. (Y)
...my hair feels nice because i've just washed it.:D
..and something.

...seriously what the fuck

i'm so confused right now...


argh i hate these "." ARGH

TOAST!

no. no toast. ive gone off toast.

.........................................
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................

....

i'm really happy.



xxxxxxxxxx


p.s. it's been too long since i've been able to say that and mean it. now that i can, it's the best feeling i've ever felt.

,

...? for fuck sake.

"Less of the physical contact.."

she thought it was amusing lol!

:D lol whooooops... xD God i thought i was a complete shitarse at physics, but..and i'd revised for hours the day before so that obviously helped.. i got 35/35 on todays paper! *phew*

But i know that when it comes to the ACTUAL exams i'll piss it up and only get half a mark.

or two.

lolz.

god, is it almost wednesday already? time moves so fast..

and also, if you are having similar thoughts to me, or just leave a comment saying what you make or think of it, but like, what do all you guys think of the whole "World to end in 2012 Doomsday" thing? I got a bit worried, well..not a bit, when i first properly read about it roughly two hours ago, and to be honest, i really don't know how i'm feeling about it right now.

All i know is that i really don't want the world to end just yet because there are WAY too many things i want to say and do before i leave this Earth. But if that was to happen, all I'd really want and need is for all the people i love to be with me.

and somehow we'd all stay together.

xxxxxxxxxxx

p.s. my biggest fear is dying alone.

dumps like a truck, truck truck, thighs like a what, what, what!

^^ LOVE it! kate haha xD

...there's nothing bad about my life right now. Apart from the exams coming up on Thursday.... but I even don't feel that bad about them either. ...I can actually honestly, and truly say, there's nothing bad about my life right now.

...you have no idea how good it feels to write that, think that, and say that. Well, maybe some of you do, but yeah (:

i'm happy. sososo happy.

life's good :D

xxxx

...i have no idea what happened to me this weekend

...but i have to say, right now? i feel...lucky. really, lucky.

..things seem right, and i feel really comfortable.

sometimes being paranoid just doesn't do anyone any good.

xxxxxx

so you felt it, but you don't know, why you can't explain at all, that you felt it, 'cause you don't know, no you don't know.

...this weekend has seemed so long, and to be honest tiring.

the only thing good about this weekend was town yesterday.

..i'm going to wash my hair tonight.

so you felt it, but you don't know why you can't explain at all, that you felt it, 'cause you don't know, no you don't know.

break the walls between building atrophy, causing all your problems to recede.

Return to days when you knew you still felt alive
Reveal the way you felt when you could look inside

take back, the beat in your heart. why fight, when you can't be bought.

i just want to go outside and lie in the middle of the road right now. ..nice and peaceful, you know?

xxxxx

.

goddamn it.

wtf?!

right

i was planning on waking up at quarter past 8 this morning, set the alarm for it as well, so I could have time to do some revision maybe, have a small lie-in and get ready to go out today.

but when i woke up, it was fucking 10 minutes to 10. And whats so fucking weird....is that when i looked at my alarm clock to see why the hell it hadn't worked..the screen was blank and somehow the batteries had smashed out.

********

this post above was actually supposed to be posted this morning before i went out.... but i forgot to, and have just found it now lmao xD

So yeah, town was aweeesoomeee:D

It was piissing down outside, so when everyone had arrived, we went off to the food court to hang out, which was realllly awesome:D

then towards the end we went to Waterstone's, and found the awesome, the immense, the EPIC WINDOW SEAT! and sofaaaaaas :D

We now own the WINDOW SEAT + SOFA AREA so anyone who happens to trespass shall be subject to a great whack on the head, and a great push out the window.

I swear my hair was going to be blown off today, wtf is up with the wind?!?!?!


anywaays.....

...why is my ipod playing bring me the horizon???? :O

lool

hmm....anything else to say???
Urrrmmm....

oh yeah, life'sgoodlife'sgoodlife'sgoodlife'sgoodlife'sgoodlilfe'sgood :D

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Vertigirl

*Two Person Rave*
:D

OMG yeah that oh my god, oh my god thing works Kate!! (i'm not too sure as to how to do it on here, so thats why its written so uncool..ly? xD)

VERTIGO+GIRL= ...

VERTIGIRL!

..me apparently. >.>

..did you know that Viagra reeeeally isn't the same as Vertigo?

..well it could be if you have a sick mind...

hm.....

TOWN TOMORROW:)

...seriously



what

in


the


BLOODY

FUCK

has happened to House Drama? It used to be so interesting, so full of flair, and imagination, and not its just bollocks.

Windsor- PFFT.

York- PFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFT.

Stuart- Piss Off.

Lancaster- hmm..alright, >.>

Hanover- pretty ok :)

Tudor- GO TUDOR. ...nah.


but seriously, overall? piss.

today was actually quite a boring day.... club was alright though :}

i want to smash my phone....

oOoOoOoOhs yeahh's, i got a DC hoodie:D

I'ma wear it in town tomorrooooooooooooooooooooooooo

...i'm typing weirdly...

ah wells.

tee

hee.

moo

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When I see your smile
Tears run down my face I can't replace
And now that I'm strong I have figured out
How this world turns cold and it breaks through my soul
And I know I'll find deep inside me I can be the one

I will never let you fall
I'll stand up with you forever
I'll be there for you through it all
Even if saving you sends me to heaven

It's okay. It's okay. It's okay.
Seasons are changing
And waves are crashing
And stars are falling all for us
Days grow longer and nights grow shorter
I can show you
I'll be the one

I will never let you fall (let you fall)
I'll stand up with you forever
I'll be there for you through it all (through it all)
Even if saving you sends me to heaven

Cuz you're my, you're my, my, my true love, my whole heart
Please don't throw that away
Cuz I'm here for you
Please don't walk away and
Please tell me you'll stay, stay

Use me as you will
Pull my strings just for a thrill
And I know
I'll be okay
Though my skies are turning gray

I will never let you fall
I'll stand up with you forever
I'll be there for you through it all
Even if saving you sends me to heaven.


listen.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=jRehmX3zlwE

xxx

hmmmmmmmm.....

yeah:)




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:):):D:D:):)

i feel better...:)

i'm...feeling better:)

....got the same mark as i did yesterday in another physics test today. >:@ !*£& @!*& %*&$!! F!*&@

...excuse me.

...something really freaked me out today O.O it's like i was psychic....

just got back from Kelly's crib, yo. Lmao that was bloody hilarious xD

.....tits your boobday?

xD


hahaaaaaaaaaaahahahahahahhah

HOUSE DRAMA TOMORROW! *skip diddy skip*

My name's "skip diddy skip"
I don't ever tolerate lip diddy lip


or some shizzle mcdizzle like dat blud...^^

HAHAHA

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i feel bad...

argh. i felt ill, dizzy, tired, achey, shit today at school. i feel better now though, which is good.

But...i'm sorry if i made you feel like i was ignoring you, i was in a crap CRAP mood after the science test, and fucking ill. and i feel really bad now.

i'm going to fail physics. what good is it to just do well in one bloody aspect of science when I completely fuck up all the rest??

...i also want to thank you, for everything. no matter how shit i feel, or what shits happened, one look at you and it's like..it doesn't even matter anymore, and everything just seems alright again.

...if only i had the guts to say it all to you in person.


argh fuck it

xxxxxxx

Pure hearts stumble, in my hands, they crumble

muse's new CD is bloody brilliant.

:D

currently doing science test right now, and it's really not too hard tbh...
lol

*************************
after a while of silence of busisisisisiness...

i've just finished my science test!! lool, it was fairly easy lmao

PARTAY AT KELLY'S WEDNESDAY!

And TOWN on SATURDAY!!!! WOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

yeahhhhhhhhhhhhhh :}

yeah boii (:

...i aint no chav.


{When comfort and warmth can't be found I still reach for you}

xxxxx

yoyoyo

god i am actually feeling SO weird right now...


i dont know:S


i cant WAITT to go back to school tomorrow:D:D:D:D:D:D:D

aaand my moommy's getting me muse's new album tomorro xD yeayyyyy

Hold you in my arms, I just wanted to hold you in my arms.





ooh yeah and listen to I Killed The Prom Queen
they are legit;D
xxx

During the struggle they will pull us down but please, please lets use this chance to turn things around, and tonight, we can truly say, together we're invincible.

your mama too and your daaaadaaaaayyyyy

...dunno why i wrote that, i but i had it in my head yesterday at club xD

life'sgoodlife'sgoodlife'sgoodlife'sgoodlife'sgood

I am....going to a bonfire tonight, and sleeping round summer's! raveexD

Lool, i got these JLS (*puke*) stickers in Sugar magazine two days ago, and seeing as Katie really loves JLS...and seeing as i bloody hate them.... i'maa give them to her :D how kind am i. lol xD

i reeeeeally have nothing to write

apart from

yesterday was bloody awesome

school was bloody awesome

club was gooood

and life is bloody awesome.

xxxxxxxseeeyouuuuuuuuuuuuuuu

p.s. have an epic weekend everyone!!:D xxx

hahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahaha

life's just too good:D

xxxx

lalalalalalalala

today was amazing. brilliant. awesome. great. good. immense. epic. Perfect.

GAH LIFES JUST SOO GOOOD!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I;m so happy

sosossosoosossosoossoosss happy
xxxx

gaga

i think i may have found my tongue....

thanks

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i hold my breath, because you are perfect. but i'm running out of air, and it's not fair.

i can't speak

i have so many things i want to say

and so many things i want to do

ALL THIS IS CRAP

I NEED TO GET OUT OF HERE

I NEED TO GET OUT OF THIS HOUSE

I NEED TO GET AWAY FROM THEM

FROM THE FUCKING SHIT THAT GOES ON EVERY GODDAMN DAY

IT'S HOME . I'M SUPPOSED TO FEEL SAFE CARED FOR LOVED HAPPY

i feel NONE OF THEM WHEN I'M HERE

look, i'm tired of shouting
over a blog, and at home
and i really cant be fucking arsed to fight anymore, the same stupid, childish arguments over and over, and over again for fucks sake.

this had gotten to the point where i dont even know my own mum anymore. my stepdad is really great. but my mum is like dealing with fucking hitler.

say i'm harsh, i dont care. i fucking don't bloody care,

when i had/have problems, my mum never understands. she thinks it's all because i want to go against her. she was horrible to me when i needed help the most.

i got better because of one person. and i want to thank that person for making me feel like i could do it. he makes me feel on top of the world. even when i'm at the bottom.

naturally, i turn to my friends and him for support, my family knows nothing about me
i can't tell them anything, and everyone else knows everything about me and i can tell them anything.

i'm so dependant on those people. they're the reason i think "it's ok, just block out all the bad shit at home, you have school tomorrow/you're going into town, you'll see your friends and him, everything will be ok," "no matter what happens, nothing could ever be that bad."

and its true, i do think like that.

it's just...i can't imagine life without

.

i cant.

xx

i'm on fire

gah sleepover was awesome :}



currently doing art.... mao.



i feel.....don't know why this word but it describes it perfectly, hollow?



i feel hollow



right now, because i wish it was the start of the weekend again

i feel blah because of stuff that's gone on at home. or should i just call it a pit. pit of shit.

and i miss someone. very much.



Switchfoot - On Fire



^good song :)



They tell you where you need to go, they tell you when you need to leave,
They tell you what you need to know, tell you who you need to be,
There's so much more than empty conversations filled with empty words

You're on fire when he's near you, you're on fire when he speaks

You are the hope i have for change, you are the only chance i take
I'm on fire when you're near me, i'm on fire when you speak.

xxx