We'll make this count x

DUDE...HAPPY NEW YEAR!

:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D
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let's make this count.

Love you ALL!!
:D:D:D
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The 22 Highlights of 2009

So...this will be my last post in 2009. This all has been such a weird way to end 2009. But, 2010 has GOT to be better, and WILL be better. :)

2009 has actually been quite a brilliant year when I think about it actually... I'm going to make a list :D :

1. I've gotten into drunken messes with mates, (probably not the CLEVEREST year then but who gives a toss)
2. Been to legendary concerts
3. Legendary sleepovers
4. Met lots of new people
5. Stalked people lol, Kaytei, Zesty Bloke xD
6. Did rebellious things with mates xP
7. Started a new year, with new options at school
8. Felt, happy,
9. Those long, comforting talks with friends
10. Amazing days
11. Made a cake:D
12. All the memorable phonecalls
13. Been to Thorpe Park
14. Towning like a BILLION times ;D
15. Elin's birthday sleepover :D DAMN that was wicked.
16. Hugs ^_^
17. Had an amazing, AMAZING summer. i really mean that.
18. When things seemed so dark, he showed up, and became the light
19. Year Ten, BRILLIANT year so far, can't believe how lucky i've been.
20. Fallen out with mates, boys, but things resolved.
21. Fallen in love.
22. Found someone amazing.

There's 22 things that have made this year special, and all the things that have made me happy.

Even though another year is passing...we can all learn something from it, and forget whatever the hell it is we want to forget. That's what I'm planning and going to do.

So, let's raise our glasses high (of sparkling water of course lol), and say cheers, to a new year, a fresh start, and a year which is completely ours.

:D

I love all you guys so much.

And here's to a brilliant, amazing, fantastic New Year. Cheers :D

Let's make this count.

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i wanted this new year to be a good one

It's gunna be a good one :D

Off to Spain today!

So I guess i'll see you guys when I get back then...


;)
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Can't write what I want to write so I've written what I can.

Hmm...life really is interesting isn't it. In three months, so much can happen when you're a teenager. It seems like a lifetime, when actually it's been barely any of it. I remember the summer, how things moved on from one thing to another so quickly. It just...feels so different, but the same. I have no idea to be honest. Look at me, trying to analyse teenage life. Or life in general. That's stupid. Who am I to know. I'm just a little girl, you know. A little girl who spends too much time trying to figure everything out. There are times when I just listen to a song, or read something, or find something on my computer, and it reminds me of things that happened before. The summer was so different. I can't say I was satisfied with everything though. I suppose no one can be completely satisfied with everything, that's completely impossible. But what I mean is there was one main thing I wasn't satisfied with. That wasn't so much during the summer holidays though. Something that had made its home in the back of my mind. Later on, something happened, and I'm going to have to live with it for the rest of my life. I can't say it's not hard. I can't say it's easy to just stop. But also, I can't say i've lived the worst. There are many people in this world that have taken it too far, and have it much, much worse than me, and I suppose I'm lucky to have taken a step back before I took things too far. Going back a step, everybody was so different. But still, I don't know, they seem the same now, but, when you look back, they're different. Do you know what I mean? Oh forget it, how the fuck are you supposed to know what I mean. I'm starting to swear now, I hate my constant swearing. This is why I really value all the little things I have. Be it a small bottle, pieces of paper with writing or drawings, notes, just anything, because it brings back a memory, and I've realised that sometimes those memories never come back to life. But then again, sometimes they do. Most of the time they do. With me they have to. That doesn't even make any fucking sense. I value so many things in my life, and I value them so much. And, I start to rely on them, and rely, and rely, until every piece of my life is glued together by their very existance. When I fall, I fall fast, and in more ways than one. When you're young, everything feels like the end of the world. But the truth is, it's only the beginning. Maybe that's why I feel so bruised.

"Penis Muffs" (bloody hell. LMAO xL)

God last night was epic..

I can't believe we got away with it hahaha, meh wasn't THAT bad anyways.

It was fucking fun though! And bloody hell you two scared me and Elin >.<

DON'T PEE IN THE SNOW! xD

Tommy you epicly failed at your "Mine" game (i didnt say it! i just typed it xD) 20 pushups in one night..lmao

I'm listening to DELIA!

HAHAAi have just made a cakkkeee....going to ice it later:) or tomorrow morning..... then it's off to Louise's to partayyy! :D:D (Y)

The film on friday, well yesterday, was absolutely brilliant (Where The Wild Things Are). seriously, a film like that could be made from a children's picture book? Wow. And the music was awesome in it too. And it was also awesome because we just kinda..crashed out on the floor as our seats were RIGHT at the front :D *woo*

hmm...

that's all.......

for now ... lol

byeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee

lovelovelove

fml

nah actually i won't fml.

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i am getting SO pissed off right now..

this weekend's starting tomorrow...
and it's gonna be gooooood gooooood gooooood

it's gunna be goooooood goooood gooooood :D

Lol.

Busted rock my world.


hahahah

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here we go, take a bow...

and honestly i think...

what if you can't write what you want to write?

hm.... guess what.

Things are ok! *sigh*.

Phew.

Well, just about Ok. Actually,you know what, they are.

Phew.

Sorted things out.


And today was a goooooooooooood day at school :D

Got some lovelehh perfume from Kateh and a wickeddd CD from Robert \^^/(-_-)\^^/ Lol,is taht how you write it??

I is confused.


mahmahmahmahmahmahmah

God,last night was so crap, i didn't get to sleep until quarter past 4. stupid.


Well, at least things are so much brighter now!

Love you all

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p.s. STOP PUTTING SHARPENINGS ON MY SEAT SO THAT THEY VERY INCONVENIENTLY STICK TO MY ARSE!

hahaha.

right.

shit.

shit

shit

shit
shi
tsisthisths


SHIT
SHIT

SHIT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

SHIT

!!!
SHIT!!!

SHIT!!!
SHIT!!!

SHIT!!!


THE FUCKING DYE MADE MY FUCKING FRINGE BLONDE, OR

FUCKING YELLOW SHOULD I FUCKING SAY

But......NOT TO WORRY, as i'm now FUCKING REDYING MY FUCKING FRINGE

FOR FUCK SAKE

FUCKING HELL

FUCK IT

FUCK THIS


FUCKCKCKCKCKCK


ARGH

It looks alright anywhere else, but FUCKING HELL did it look shit. fucking fucking fucking fucking hell.


SHITSHITSHITHSITHISTHISTHISTHITHIS


I'M SO FUCKING GLAD MY MUM HAD THAT EXTRA HAIR DYE!!!
LIFESAVER MUCH????!!!!




FUCKING HELL!!!!

xxx

o.o

damn...i really, REALLY, really, really, do hope this dye works out right..

And i REALLY hope i don't end up with green hair...


nah, that won't happen.


i hope.





o.o



anyways, HI!

How are you guys? Good? Good.

How am I?

I'm BRILLIANT thanks:D

Life's going damn great, and I just can't stop smiling! :D

Smile, even if you don't want to, just, do it, it helps.

Well, does for me. lol

Only another week of school left eh? Damn time goes quickly. And DAMN do I say damn a lot. Soon it's going to be 2010, then another academic year will past, and we'll all have to face the ramifications of year 11, then it'll be Sixth Form, then comes the apparant BEST FEW YEARS of your life, Uni, then we'll all look for jobs, and then BAM we're thirty and in a dead end job where everyday seems like a black hole of neverending shit and we just want to die and everything turns to fuck and then the world will slowly be ungulfed by the sun or global warming of whatever shit that causes it to die and us to die with it.

Unless, of course, 2012's doomsday happens.

Because, then we'll all die early! Yay!


..No.


LOL Anyways, no need to worry! No, no need to worry at all.. *nervous laughter* haha

haha

ha

.


I'm in a weird mood.

:D

but, i'm still SMILING!:D

Even though Last Friday has decided to go and place its fuckish existance in my life.

Poohead.


BYE, Have a good rest of day!:D:DD:D::D:DD::D:D:DD



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GAH

HELL YES BITCHES!

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...i'm seeing things so much more positively now. And...everything's ok.

Thanks, Hazel.

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so much for promises, huh? so much for meaning what you say, huh? so much for caring, huh? so much for loving, huh? so much for thinking of me, huh? so much for being there, huh? so much for living, huh? so much for breathing, huh? so much for FUCKING TRYING, huh? so much for fucking shit.

please, i can't do this anymore. please, this hurts.

I can't make decisions
When you're face is dissapearing,
Like footprints, in wet sand.

I can't make decisions
When I'm being pulled both ways,
Fragile enough to snap
Fragile enough to cry

I can't make decisions
When your face is blank
It's fading
And I can't see you anymore.

yo

...bloody hell i've barely written anything recently.
wasn't in the mood tbh.

Buut....these couple of days have been really, really good.

Yesterday was so busy, but so awesome! I had an art trip with loads of people, and there were loads of laughs during that hahahaha xD then i went ice skating with loads of peopleee, then i slept over at Hattieeee's :D

Then there was town today, which was hilarious lol.

"It's pink, and it's manly because its the colour of your non-existant...."

LOL!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! bloody hell. haha.
sorry. >.< hahaaaaa.

GAH losagne

losagne?
Lasagne

i'll start again...

GAH ;asagne

..fuck it.

GAH lasaghe

FOR PISS SAKE

GAH lasagne is

(*YAY*)

calling me Name!!!!!!

i'maaa goo and....eat it, yeah.


yeahhhhhh yum

bye xxxxxxxxxxxx

a good friend's back.

x

run out of things.

...eh , maybe not.