Because the sun is out, the sky is pretty clear, and I have a lot of fun things I could be doing now on the computer, so why the hell do I feel sick with all this? I'm allowed into town next Friday again, so i'm reeeeally happy about that. But something just happened that made me doubt that i'll see him again. If ever. I'm just never that lucky about anything. But you know what? FUCK IT, I AM going to see him again, one of my best friends said, "If you keep up that attitude, see if it gets you anywhere." So fuck it, I'm seeing him again. At every cost.
Sometimes it really, really hurts, because I don't know why....i know i've barely known him for like 3 days, but i don't know why, I just feel like I want to see him again so fucking badly.
I can't stop thinking about him. And whoever reads this blog, yeah fuck it, you're going to think i'm stupid, I FUCKING GET THAT, OKAY? I don't need EVERY SINGLE BLOODY LIVING SOUL ON THIS GODDAMN SHITHOLE OF A PLANET TELLING ME EVERY SECOND OF EVERY GODDAMNED DAY.
Right now I just need a distraction. I have plenty, i have a computer right here in my room don't I? So, i'll be somewhat fine for today.
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aw cazz :( what on earth made you think you won't see him again? he lives and works in guildford, you're bound to bump into him someplace
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p.s sleepover was IMMENSE!!! love love love you!!
thanks:) I was just having a weird mood i guess :\
ReplyDeleteand yeah the sleepover was AWESOME! seriously great time!!! :D:D:D love love love you tooo!!
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