things are looking up things are looking up things are really looking uuuuuuuuuuppppppppp

i have this really awesome skull candle thing that i got from spain. it's like, a skull replica, but with a place to put a candle in it. i lit it today and just kinda...sat in my room with only the light from the candle, (and my computer, obv. lmfao.) and it was..quite nice actually.

i haven't really written much in detail about how the past few days or weeks have been, ive just written random words really haven't i? :x

well, i'm not going to lie and say it's been good. it hasn't.

to be honest, i really don't know who i am anymore. i just don't feel...right, anymore, you know? oh hell, what do you know.

take away one part of me, and i lose the rest. i lost the rest. it seems like so long ago that i can't even remember what the rest was.

they say what doesn't kill you makes you stronger. i'm not getting stronger. to be honest, i feel myself getting weaker.

there you go, you're gone for good.

i miss it. too much
xxx

casting my mind back to how things used to be is so painful it's almost unreal.

THAT WAS FUCKING AWESOME

That was the most fucking epicly brilliant and EPIC weekend of my fucking life.

The rave around Croydon was fucking notch xD

fucking awesome.

i love you kelly xxxxxx

such a fucking brilliant time :D
xxxxxx

smirnoff ice

dubstep

kelly

hoola hoops

penis

salad fingers

your mind is swollen, from months of thought without release.

they've taken their toll on you.




to damn fucking right.


I WANT TO GET OUT OF MY HEAD

maybe...