i have this really awesome skull candle thing that i got from spain. it's like, a skull replica, but with a place to put a candle in it. i lit it today and just kinda...sat in my room with only the light from the candle, (and my computer, obv. lmfao.) and it was..quite nice actually.

i haven't really written much in detail about how the past few days or weeks have been, ive just written random words really haven't i? :x

well, i'm not going to lie and say it's been good. it hasn't.

to be honest, i really don't know who i am anymore. i just don't feel...right, anymore, you know? oh hell, what do you know.

take away one part of me, and i lose the rest. i lost the rest. it seems like so long ago that i can't even remember what the rest was.

they say what doesn't kill you makes you stronger. i'm not getting stronger. to be honest, i feel myself getting weaker.

there you go, you're gone for good.

i miss it. too much
xxx