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life's just too good:D

xxxx

lalalalalalalala

today was amazing. brilliant. awesome. great. good. immense. epic. Perfect.

GAH LIFES JUST SOO GOOOD!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I;m so happy

sosossosoosossosoossoosss happy
xxxx

gaga

i think i may have found my tongue....

thanks

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i hold my breath, because you are perfect. but i'm running out of air, and it's not fair.

i can't speak

i have so many things i want to say

and so many things i want to do

ALL THIS IS CRAP

I NEED TO GET OUT OF HERE

I NEED TO GET OUT OF THIS HOUSE

I NEED TO GET AWAY FROM THEM

FROM THE FUCKING SHIT THAT GOES ON EVERY GODDAMN DAY

IT'S HOME . I'M SUPPOSED TO FEEL SAFE CARED FOR LOVED HAPPY

i feel NONE OF THEM WHEN I'M HERE

look, i'm tired of shouting
over a blog, and at home
and i really cant be fucking arsed to fight anymore, the same stupid, childish arguments over and over, and over again for fucks sake.

this had gotten to the point where i dont even know my own mum anymore. my stepdad is really great. but my mum is like dealing with fucking hitler.

say i'm harsh, i dont care. i fucking don't bloody care,

when i had/have problems, my mum never understands. she thinks it's all because i want to go against her. she was horrible to me when i needed help the most.

i got better because of one person. and i want to thank that person for making me feel like i could do it. he makes me feel on top of the world. even when i'm at the bottom.

naturally, i turn to my friends and him for support, my family knows nothing about me
i can't tell them anything, and everyone else knows everything about me and i can tell them anything.

i'm so dependant on those people. they're the reason i think "it's ok, just block out all the bad shit at home, you have school tomorrow/you're going into town, you'll see your friends and him, everything will be ok," "no matter what happens, nothing could ever be that bad."

and its true, i do think like that.

it's just...i can't imagine life without

.

i cant.

xx

i'm on fire

gah sleepover was awesome :}



currently doing art.... mao.



i feel.....don't know why this word but it describes it perfectly, hollow?



i feel hollow



right now, because i wish it was the start of the weekend again

i feel blah because of stuff that's gone on at home. or should i just call it a pit. pit of shit.

and i miss someone. very much.



Switchfoot - On Fire



^good song :)



They tell you where you need to go, they tell you when you need to leave,
They tell you what you need to know, tell you who you need to be,
There's so much more than empty conversations filled with empty words

You're on fire when he's near you, you're on fire when he speaks

You are the hope i have for change, you are the only chance i take
I'm on fire when you're near me, i'm on fire when you speak.

xxx