even though i'm grounded.

even though i feel like shit.

even though i'm not supposed to be here and on this computer right now typing this.

even though i thought other things were fine again but still fucked up

royally.

even though i feel like i could just step out the front door at 3am and just run away and never come back.

even though i don't feel i can do this anymore.

even though my mum doesn't give two shits about me.

even though my mum says things that make me panic until i can't breathe.



i still want to wake up tommorrow and see your eyes.